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Spring break is coming to a close and I’m starting to realize a lot of things becoming an English teacher. One; there really is no such thing as a break because you are constantly doing something rather that be reading or doing projects. Two; No matter what, you’re always going to feel caught up and completely behind simultaneously. Three; I literally need to stop procrastinating all of my assignments until the last few days possible.
Beyond that though, I felt like I was completely behind on my projects. I kept looking on how there were four parts to the UGP project, and I was thinking to myself ‘this is all due Tuesday at midnight; how are you going to be able to finish all of this by then?’ Part of me is still questioning that, but looking at everything I’m realizing how much I actually have done, and I’m stressing out for little to no reason.
For one, most of my TAW checklist is completely filled out. While there are some blank spaces in places, it means that the spot is being filled somewhere else, and I have to remind myself of that constantly. I know that some of these parts of the lists are for reminding yourself that you need to do it, but I’m reminding myself of something that has already been done.
Second, I finished my Teacher Resource Guide, which was something that I was worried about. I wasn’t sure if I was going to be able to find much in the fact of teaching this type of genre, but there are quite a bit of resources out there. I think I felt this way because I wasn’t taught it when I was in middle or high school, so I figured since I haven’t been out of there for very long, it wasn’t just magically come into the light. I also need to remember that Wyoming is literally 10 years behind everyone else and that a lot of schools teach different types of things, even though we are all learning the same thing. It’s kind of amazing how creative teachers can get in between the strict guidelines they have.
I’m also working on my final reflection on the whole process of this. It’s kind of nice to see where I’ve started and now where I am, but I do notice there are some places that I haven’t found the “flow” yet, and I’m beginning to realize that’s okay. It’s okay to not have everything down perfectly, and it’s okay that it’s not going to be perfect (though I’m still cringing when I say that; everything should be perfect to the best of its ability). I think sometimes reflecting is the best thing to do in situations like these, especially since we have two more badges to do after this one.
I’m still working on putting together the final project and also doing the poster part for this UGP. I think the part I’m most concerned with is recording all of this because I’m just not good at talking to a camera, and I’m also not good at performing in front of people anyways. I knew that this is where I was going to struggle the most, and of course I have to wait until last minute to do everything. I also still don’t fully understand the poster part, or what I’m exactly supposed to do with it. I guess I understand it, but also don’t at the same time? I don’t know how I’m supposed to exactly present this, I guess.
Everything is coming together though. All of the pieces are falling into place. Just a lot of tweaking and finalizing. Breathe.
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